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Lady Gaga contemplated sobriety while making new album: ‘I’m not there yet’

Lady Gaga “flirted with the idea of sobriety” while making her new album “Chromatica.”

“I don’t take any pain medication, because it’s not healthy for me,” she told Zane Lowe on Apple Music on Thursday. “But I’ve flirted with the idea of sobriety. I’m not there yet, but I flirted with it throughout the album.

Gaga, 34, said she contemplated giving up alcohol while specifically recording a song named, “911,” which is about an “antipsychotic” drug the singer said she takes.

“It’s something that came up as a result of me trying to work through the pain that I was feeling,” she said. “But part of my healing process was going, ‘Well, I can either lash the hell out of myself every day for continuing to drink, or I can just be happy that I’m still alive and keep going,’ and feel good enough.”

Gaga said she then realized, “I am good enough. It’s not perfect, but wabi-sabi. I’m perfectly imperfect.”

However, the “Stupid Love” singer said she did quit one of her vices: smoking — presumably weed.

“I smoked the whole way through making this record,” she said. “And when we were done, I stopped. It was the most bizarre, beautiful thing that could have happened, that this music actually healed me.”

The singer said she has also healed from some of her past traumas.

“I think I forgive myself,” she added. “I forgive myself for all the ways I’ve punished myself in private. I’ve been open about the fact that I used to cut. And I’ve open about the fact that I have had masochistic tendencies that are not healthy. And they’re ways of expressing shame. They’re ways of expressing feeling not good enough, but actually they’re not effective. They just make you feel worse.”

“Chromatica” is due out on May 29. The album was previously postponed due to the coronavirus pandemic.