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Demi Moore fears she’s ‘not worthy of being loved’

Moore also talks about her extremely thin physique.

Moore also talks about her extremely thin physique. (Cedric Buchet for Harper’s Bazaar)

In an interview done mere days after Demi Moore announced that she was ending her six-year marriage to Ashton Kutcher, the “Margin Call” actress revealed her deepest fears — “settling” and finding out that she’s “not worthy of being loved.”

Speaking with friend Amanda de Cadenet in the new issue of Harper’s Bazaar, Moore appears deeply contemplative as she discusses the things that scare her most.

Moore says, “If I were to answer it just kind of bold-faced, I would say what scares me is that I’m going to ultimately find out at the end of my life that I’m really not lovable, that I’m not worthy of being loved. That there’s something fundamentally wrong with me … What scares me the most is not knowing and accepting that just about everything is not in my control. That makes me feel unsafe.”

Moore could be referencing Kutcher’s fidelity, which came into question when 22-year-old blond Sara Leal alleged that she had a sexy hotel tryst with Kutcher the same night as his sixth wedding anniversary with Moore.

In the interview, de Cadenet — a photographer with whom Moore created the Lifetime series “The Conversation” — reveals her own worst fear.

“Infidelity scares me,” de Cadenet says pointedly at Moore. “It scares me when it happens to my friends.”

Moore takes a minute to consider this.

She responds, “I used to think that what scared me was the idea of being abandoned until someone said to me, ‘Only children can be abandoned. Adults can’t be abandoned because we have a choice. Children don’t have a choice.’ So I started to rethink. ‘OK, it’s not that. What’s the underlying thread that really scares me?’ I think what scares me is not having the courage to reach my full potential … That I would allow fear, insecurity, and doubt to rule me and that I would ask for only a little of what is actually there for me. It would mean that I would be settling.”

Her statement seems to explain why she ultimately decided to leave Kutcher rather than stick it out.

In the interview, Moore also talks about her body, which appeared increasingly willowy as her marriage faltered.

“I have had a love-hate relationship with my body,” Moore explained. “I think I sit today in a place of greater acceptance of my body, and that includes not just my weight but all of the things that come with your changing body as you age to now experiencing my body as extremely thin — thin in a way that I never imagined, that somebody would be saying to me, ‘You’re too thin, and you don’t look good.’ You can’t look at yourself in the mirror and tear your body apart. You have to look at it and go, ‘Thank you. Thank you for standing by me, for being there for me no matter what I have put you through.'”

“The Conversation” will premiere on Lifetime on Jan. 15.