Chris Brown‘s road to redemption after beating ex-girlfriend Rihanna has been lonely. The singer comes clean about being blackballed by fans and industry peers in an interview with Page Six Magazine, out Thursday. “A handful of people stuck by me,” Brown said, including fellow artists Pitbull and Pharrell Williams of N.E.R.D. “But when [most] people see certain things happen to somebody, they usually turn away. They don’t want to get involved with it because they don’t want their name attached to anything negative.” Brown, who explained his new album, “F.A.M.E.,” stands for ‘Forgiving All My Enemies,’ is starting to feel welcome again. “They wanna get on the record. They wanna let me back in the door. The last two years, everybody dissed me. But my fans were so dedicated. The way I look at it is, you can’t walk around mad, because then you just prove everybody right that you’re an angry person.”